Mike Smith looked right at me during warmups in Vancouver last night. I mention this not out of personal significance, but because it’s out of character for him. There are players who interact with fans at game time and players who do not, and in my three years of traveling from Seattle to Vancouver for Coyotes games, I have never once seen Mike Smith acknowledge the existence of a world outside the glass.
I’ve also never seen him look as comfortable as he did last night. Throughout the evening, Smith maintained improbably calm and controlled body language, for a man with a documented habit of enraged stick destruction. He seems to have achieved something of a state of zen over his situation: it is not his fault that his team is terrible, and he is more confident of that than he has ever been. It’s a good look for him.
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In psychology, the definition of “grit” has to do with a person’s capacity to keep working toward a goal without seeing immediate results. It’s the flip side of that phony definition of “insanity” that will never stop being repeated no matter how many times it gets debunked. People with grit are people who don’t give up even when it seems like they’re failing, even when they’ve been failing for a long time and it doesn’t look likely that they’re going to succeed anytime soon. Grit is a form of emotional toughness.
In hockey, “grit” is an intangible quality with as many definitions as there are coaches who use the word, but it usually has more to do with physical toughness than emotional. “Gritty” players are fourth-liners who can take a punch and stick out a long shift without slowing down. Nobody ever uses that word to describe a goalie.
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Warmups last night were a somewhat grim affair. Arizona was on a seven-game losing streak going into this game, sitting at rock-bottom of the league standings, and no one wanted Dave Tippett to catch them goofing off. At one point Lawson Crouse slammed Anthony Duclair against the boards harder than I have ever been checked in my life as both of them giggled like they were having a tickle fight, and at another point Shane Doan shot a beautifully eloquent “what the hell, man, I thought we were friends” face at a kid sporting Canucks gear, but otherwise it was all business.
I did not have my heart set on a win. The Coyotes had won 11 of 37 games so far this season, and while I did hold out hope that I might witness their 12th, my expectations were calibrated appropriately. I had, in fact, purchased a ticket four rows back at the faceoff dot of our end in the first and third, rather than my usual mid-lower-bowl center line seat, because I knew very well that Mike Smith was more likely to be worth watching than the overall game.
He’s been fantastic this season. You can’t really see it in the numbers, and no one who hasn’t been watching consistently would know, but if the rest of our team weren’t actively on fire he could be in the running for the Vezina right now. The Coyotes are terrible, as they have been for years, but this season no one is blaming Smith.
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I knew a lot of people who became Blackhawks fans after the 2013 playoffs and cheered for 24 games straight without ever learning what it was like to watch their team get creamed. I thought it was a pretty disingenuous introduction to sports fandom.
Not many of them stuck around after the streak ended. Complacency does not foster grit, and it turns out losing really sucks.
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Three minutes into the game, Mike Smith played the puck outside the trapezoid and earned a penalty. This was typical Mike Smith behavior. When the PK unit failed to clear, he commandeered the puck in his crease and flipped it all the way through to the other end himself. This was also typical Mike Smith behavior.
Halfway through the first, Connauton coughed up the puck in the worst possible spot and Vancouver scored. Smith appeared entirely unfazed. This was not at all typical. All goalies hate being scored on, of course, but Smith tends to really let it get to him. He gets worked up about his failures, and they spiral into worse failures.
It didn’t happen this time. Arizona lost the game 3-0 (on two completely undefended shots and one penalty shot) and Smith never lost his cool. When he feels on top of his game, he has this habit of banging his glove and blocker against each other between shots--kind of a “bring it, I’m ready for ya” gesture--and it’s easy to tell when he’s in a bad failure spiral because he stops doing it as much. Last night, he kept it up all the way to the latter half of the third period.
It’s not as obvious onscreen as it is from the fourth row by the faceoff dots, but I’d still noticed before seeing him live that he’s been keeping his temper a lot better this season. I wonder if something happened to help him get into a better game headspace, perhaps some wise words from a coach, or if he’s just slowly learning his lesson from loss after loss.
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I’m going to be that person now and talk about my beer league team. Bear with me.
We’re awful. We’ve played 12 games this season, all losses. I’ve been playing with this team for three seasons now and the same thing always happens: we lose the first half of the season straight through before we win a single one. This is because we’re very open to new players, so we tend to get the people who have never played before at the beginning of each season.
For the last two seasons, we won a few toward the middle and end of the season, and then really got our shit together in the playoffs. It’s hilarious given how bad we are that I have never come out of a season without an emblazoned championship drinking vessel. It’s the standard sports-movie narrative: start out bad, work hard, achieve improbable dreams.
I’m a hopeless hockey optimist, believe it or not. Every year I’m convinced this same story is going to happen with the Coyotes. Even in the death throes of Arizona's playoff chances, as we sink further and further from contention, I always believe in my heart that we’re going to pull off the miraculous winning streak that would be necessary to claw our way to the postseason. A minute from the end of this game, I was still sitting there calculating how many seconds per goal it would take to tie it up. I don’t give up hope until it’s well and truly gone.
I think the experience of losing that final scrap of hope over and over again has taught me something about dealing with disappointment. I want to think so, anyway. I'd rather not consider the possibility of having gone through that for nothing.
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One of my favorite things about Mike Smith is his ego. It’s not so much that he believes that he’s excellent--no, he believes that he can be excellent, given the right circumstances and the right effort, and he explicitly identifies obstacles to his excellence whether they’re his fault or someone else’s. If he screws up, he admits it, and affirms his confidence that he can do better; if the screwup is on someone else, he says so and doesn’t accept the blame. It’s refreshing, in this overly-tactful sport.
I knew how last night's postgame presser would go long before I watched it. He’d mention the cringeworthy turnover that led to the first goal, he’d call out the offense for the jack shit it accomplished, and he’d say something wry about Miller getting first star for a shutout he barely had to show up for. He’s always been that predictable. But gone were the formerly-just-as-predictable slump to his shoulders and bitterness in his voice.
I can’t pinpoint when exactly it happened, but sometime since the end of last season, Mike Smith has built up a solid stockpile of psychological grit. Maybe that’s why he’s been performing so well under the circumstances. And maybe soon the rest of the team will get their shit together and take advantage of the goaltending they’ve been wasting. Call it grit or call it insanity, but I haven’t yet given up hope.